the sun,
oh how bright it shines,
brighter than i ever could
bigger, brighter, better
holds your attention more than i ever would
it burns so boldly, unafraid
i stay hidden in its light
i'm always there, covered by its beauty
when it's gone, you finally see me
(when she's gone, you finally see me)
i've loved the moon so much that i became it
Friday, May 31, 2019
Thursday, May 30, 2019
Wednesday, May 29, 2019
just a quick pop-in to let you guys know that i've edited/updated my adobe portfolio just in case anyone is here for the artwork. there's a tab on my blog called "Artwork" that'll take you to it any time, any day but click here for the link just in case you're lazy!
Tuesday, May 28, 2019
Saturday, May 25, 2019
an old piece i just re-discovered:
i won't be the victim, no
we've been at this for years now,
do you really love me?
i'll never believe you
you're starting to move on,
you're smitten by someone new
you're in love w her, me too
excuse me, i meant me 2
i am me 1 & she's me 2
i think it's quite funny
she's got the same name
she's me.2
she's the new & improved me,
she's the prettier me,
she's the better me,
the me that i couldn't be
but it's not your fault really
i would never hold you to it
we weren't meant to be,
you & me
i'm happy that you're happy
but sometimes i'm not happy
& it's hard to see you happy
but as long as you are
you don't need me to talk to anymore,
you've got a better ear
one that's there,
one that's near
that was always the problem wasn't it?
you said you'd give anything to change things
but it wouldn't have changed anything
i'm still here & you're still there
i won't be the victim, no
we've been at this for years now,
do you really love me?
i'll never believe you
you're starting to move on,
you're smitten by someone new
you're in love w her, me too
excuse me, i meant me 2
i am me 1 & she's me 2
i think it's quite funny
she's got the same name
she's me.2
she's the new & improved me,
she's the prettier me,
she's the better me,
the me that i couldn't be
but it's not your fault really
i would never hold you to it
we weren't meant to be,
you & me
i'm happy that you're happy
but sometimes i'm not happy
& it's hard to see you happy
but as long as you are
you don't need me to talk to anymore,
you've got a better ear
one that's there,
one that's near
that was always the problem wasn't it?
you said you'd give anything to change things
but it wouldn't have changed anything
i'm still here & you're still there
Saturday, May 18, 2019
Monday, May 13, 2019
Read This If: A Collection of Essays that Prove Someone Else Gets it, Too- Thought Catalog
this is a book that i read quite a while ago but i stumbled onto some of the pages that resonated w me back then, that still do even now. maybe they'll resonate w you too:
"i don't think i've experienced a single loss in my life that i've gotten over in the time frame that seems to have been allotted by society as 'acceptable'"
"it's not human nature to let go. we are, at our core, territorial creatures. we fight to hold onto what we love. giving up isn't in any way instinctual"
"you let someone go at the grocery store when their favorite type of soup is on sale and you don't buy it. you let them go again when you're cleaning your bathroom and have to throw out the bottle of body wash that smells like them... sometimes you're going to have to let one person go a thousand different times, a thousand different ways, and there's nothing pathetic or abnormal about that. you are human. and it isn't always as simple as making one decision and never looking back"
"it's okay to not be there yet. it's okay to be unsure of every step that you take forward. we don't talk about how moving on sometimes feels like we're fighting every part of our most basic instincts, but we should. we should talk about how growth is often every bit as painful as it is beautiful"
"we need to keep track of our time as it's running closer and closer to empty. we need to remember to open our hearts and our minds and our thoughts and our lives up to each other, while we still have the time left to connect. we need to stay up too late and put in too much effort and be bold enough to take all of the chances that we're terrified to take on each other. we have to remember to live every day as if the next will be our greatest goodbye, because this is the greatest gift that we can give one another. the strength to live with a wide-open heart"
"the irony of growing up is that in order to do so authentically, we have to stop trying so hard. experience comes to us most fully in the moments that we do not expect and that we deal with entirely greenly... we cannot plan for the things that truly matter"
"the world is too harsh, but also too quiet. you will hear the angry words the loudest"
Sunday, May 12, 2019
Friday, May 10, 2019
"save the turtles" isn't just about saving the turtles
we've all heard that the earth is dying in like 12 or so years (ranges, depending on your source) & everyone jokes about it but no one does anything about it. there are many little things that we can all do in order to HELP decrease the waste that we produce or lessen our carbon footprint. personally, i bought some metal/silicone straws, i try to use less plastic when possible, i try to recycle as much as i can, not waste as much water, & try to eat less meat
i'm not an "environmentalist" or a "vegan" (though props to them) but i'm trying to do at least SOMETHING. but i get laughed at for bringing out my bendy silicone straws when i go out to eat w my friends & every word i say about eating less meat goes in one ear & out the other. when i'm at church collecting the daily papers that kids leave around so that i can bring them home to recycle, people think i'm being "extra." the one time i brought home boxes from work to recycle bc my workplace doesn't recycle (even though they use so many boxes), my dad made negative comments
people say that one straw, one piece of plastic doesn't matter but to the one turtle that dies from it, to the one bird that eats it, it does. people who think that one person or one act makes no difference are the problem. people like to say that straws are barely any plastic & we use more plastic w other products but if you add up every straw you've ever used in your life, that's a lot. if you think about every sheet of paper that you never recycled, it's a lot. & that's just for YOU. so multiply that by all the people in the world who think it doesn't matter & it turns out to be a lot of waste
my sister's school district got rid of recycle bins. maybe it costs too much but WHY? how can they make recycling costs a problem more important than sustainability? & then some people say it's too much work to take the extra step to do these things. it really bothers me that people can think doing one little thing to try to help the environment is a burden, like we haven't been a burden to the earth for so many years?
we say "save the turtles" as a rallying method so that we can get people to CARE. people care about the cute turtles but not about the earth. it's about saving the turtles but it's also about saving all the other animals on this earth that die from everything that us humans do. it's about all of the animals' stomachs full of plastic, chemicals, cigarettes, etc. it's about the air that we breathe being polluted & our kids inhaling it. it's about the fact that companies make millions off of the things that are bad for us & we support them & we keep letting them & we don't regulate them enough
this is just a little rant that i've had growing in me bc i am surrounded by people who don't care, who waste & don't think about the repercussions, the consequences, & the effect it'll have on the earth. we depend on the earth, not the other way around. the earth was doing fine w/o us on it & it was better off that way. we love ignoring environmental problems & we go on twitter talking about cancelling toxic people, as if that'll make the world a better place. but WE'RE the ones that are toxic, for the earth
i don't care very much if i die in the next 12 years but i do care about the earth & about other people & about the children that have to grow up w these problems that WE created. & maybe you don't think you would make a difference, but DO IT ANYWAY bc at least then, you could say you tried
we all need to try. we all need to stop thinking of this as a burden & start being accountable for our actions & what we did to the earth. i don't believe that ONE post is going to do anything or change anything. but i hope it does. & that's the key. hoping that we all start getting some sense & try to lessen the damage before it's way too late
i'm not an "environmentalist" or a "vegan" (though props to them) but i'm trying to do at least SOMETHING. but i get laughed at for bringing out my bendy silicone straws when i go out to eat w my friends & every word i say about eating less meat goes in one ear & out the other. when i'm at church collecting the daily papers that kids leave around so that i can bring them home to recycle, people think i'm being "extra." the one time i brought home boxes from work to recycle bc my workplace doesn't recycle (even though they use so many boxes), my dad made negative comments
people say that one straw, one piece of plastic doesn't matter but to the one turtle that dies from it, to the one bird that eats it, it does. people who think that one person or one act makes no difference are the problem. people like to say that straws are barely any plastic & we use more plastic w other products but if you add up every straw you've ever used in your life, that's a lot. if you think about every sheet of paper that you never recycled, it's a lot. & that's just for YOU. so multiply that by all the people in the world who think it doesn't matter & it turns out to be a lot of waste
my sister's school district got rid of recycle bins. maybe it costs too much but WHY? how can they make recycling costs a problem more important than sustainability? & then some people say it's too much work to take the extra step to do these things. it really bothers me that people can think doing one little thing to try to help the environment is a burden, like we haven't been a burden to the earth for so many years?
we say "save the turtles" as a rallying method so that we can get people to CARE. people care about the cute turtles but not about the earth. it's about saving the turtles but it's also about saving all the other animals on this earth that die from everything that us humans do. it's about all of the animals' stomachs full of plastic, chemicals, cigarettes, etc. it's about the air that we breathe being polluted & our kids inhaling it. it's about the fact that companies make millions off of the things that are bad for us & we support them & we keep letting them & we don't regulate them enough
this is just a little rant that i've had growing in me bc i am surrounded by people who don't care, who waste & don't think about the repercussions, the consequences, & the effect it'll have on the earth. we depend on the earth, not the other way around. the earth was doing fine w/o us on it & it was better off that way. we love ignoring environmental problems & we go on twitter talking about cancelling toxic people, as if that'll make the world a better place. but WE'RE the ones that are toxic, for the earth
i don't care very much if i die in the next 12 years but i do care about the earth & about other people & about the children that have to grow up w these problems that WE created. & maybe you don't think you would make a difference, but DO IT ANYWAY bc at least then, you could say you tried
we all need to try. we all need to stop thinking of this as a burden & start being accountable for our actions & what we did to the earth. i don't believe that ONE post is going to do anything or change anything. but i hope it does. & that's the key. hoping that we all start getting some sense & try to lessen the damage before it's way too late
Sunday, May 5, 2019
museum adventures | Vincent van Gogh: His Life in Art
hey guys, it's been a while. i have been preoccupied w school & work & projects but it's finals week & i'm FREE. i had been DYING to go to the Vincent van Gogh: His Life in Art exhibit at the MFAH since i heard about it, but i decided to wait until after my classes were done, so that i could focus on them. but i'm done w them & i finally went to the exhibit!!!
i didn't really take many pictures of the exhibit itself, since it was pretty crowded when i went. i went w my friend daniel & we awkwardly shuffled around to look at Van Gogh's paintings & drawings while trying to not run into the crowds of senior citizens that were also there for the exhibit
real talk, the exhibit was okay i guess. there were some reproductions in the first room, a timeline of Van Gogh's works in the next few rooms but i had much more fun in the companion display: Van Gogh Up Close. it's like an interactive room for kids, families, etc. & there are set ups for photo-taking, for drawing, & more
daniel & i took some photos in the interactive spaces & drew some sunflowers in the art-making area
all in all, i had a blast. getting to see works of van Gogh that i had never seen before was great & inspiring & getting to go to Van Gogh up close was a terrific experience. going to the exhibit was a great way to kick-off my summer
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