Sunday, December 30, 2018
Sunday, December 23, 2018
Monday, December 17, 2018
sometimes i think too much- actually, make that ALL the time, i think too much. i'm never not thinking & through this nonstop process, sometimes i come to weird realizations. one of these realizations is about why i'm not normal
i know, i know, everyone thinks that they're not normal, or that they're "different," or whatever but hear me out- every movie ever tells a story about the weird kid that just wants to fit in so they try to do the same things that everyone else does to conform. but i want to fit in too (sometimes). so why don't i try to do the same things as everyone else?
after analyzing myself w my limited knowledge of psychology (1 semester of psych to be exact), here's what i've got: i'm too insecure to be "the same." you might be thinking, what is she talking about? well, you know how kids are always too insecure to be different so they try to be like everyone else? i'm the opposite. think of all of the stuff that i don't do- those stupid dances (like the fortnite one or whatever) or saying "big mad" & turning into one of those ukelele girls that post covers on twitter
i'm way too insecure about myself to even TRY to do those things. i always think that i'm going to look stupid or sound dumb so i never even attempt it. i'm too scared of the unknown, too afraid to do something that i've never done before. so while all the kids are out here looking dumb collectively, i'm over here looking different, singularly
my friends all are outgoing, silly, crazy, loud people. they will do the weird dances, in public, in front of everyone. i don't even try to do them in my room, alone. my friends will talk too much, make weird noises, laugh so loud, & i'm over here going "omg shush" instead of laughing w them. they're out here being dumb while they're still young enough to be dumb (though honestly, they'll probably be this way forever) while i'm being completely boring & never doing anything dumb
all my life, i've had to have it together- to be a good daughter, to take care of my siblings, to get good grades & be a role model, to do everything right so that i wouldn't get yelled at- that i never got the chance to make the small mistakes & do dumb things & learn. now i just feel behind, different, even dumb sometimes, bc i never had those experiences bc i was always afraid of failing, or of letting someone down. i was never enough & it made me insecure & basically ruined everything for me
being too afraid of doing anything made me so "straight-edge" & "shy" & whatever else i've been called. now when my friends do ridiculous things or say something weird, i just shake my head & laugh awkwardly. i don't know how to be like them, like the kids these days. while i was busy being "mature" & "smart," i missed out on being "silly" & "dumb"
i don't even know where i was going w this post but i just wanted to share that realization. i guess it got me thinking about how i never let go or do anything crazy, even if it's just something small that's probably not even really considered crazy. maybe it's something i should start trying to change- not being afraid to look stupid
i know, i know, everyone thinks that they're not normal, or that they're "different," or whatever but hear me out- every movie ever tells a story about the weird kid that just wants to fit in so they try to do the same things that everyone else does to conform. but i want to fit in too (sometimes). so why don't i try to do the same things as everyone else?
after analyzing myself w my limited knowledge of psychology (1 semester of psych to be exact), here's what i've got: i'm too insecure to be "the same." you might be thinking, what is she talking about? well, you know how kids are always too insecure to be different so they try to be like everyone else? i'm the opposite. think of all of the stuff that i don't do- those stupid dances (like the fortnite one or whatever) or saying "big mad" & turning into one of those ukelele girls that post covers on twitter
i'm way too insecure about myself to even TRY to do those things. i always think that i'm going to look stupid or sound dumb so i never even attempt it. i'm too scared of the unknown, too afraid to do something that i've never done before. so while all the kids are out here looking dumb collectively, i'm over here looking different, singularly
my friends all are outgoing, silly, crazy, loud people. they will do the weird dances, in public, in front of everyone. i don't even try to do them in my room, alone. my friends will talk too much, make weird noises, laugh so loud, & i'm over here going "omg shush" instead of laughing w them. they're out here being dumb while they're still young enough to be dumb (though honestly, they'll probably be this way forever) while i'm being completely boring & never doing anything dumb
all my life, i've had to have it together- to be a good daughter, to take care of my siblings, to get good grades & be a role model, to do everything right so that i wouldn't get yelled at- that i never got the chance to make the small mistakes & do dumb things & learn. now i just feel behind, different, even dumb sometimes, bc i never had those experiences bc i was always afraid of failing, or of letting someone down. i was never enough & it made me insecure & basically ruined everything for me
being too afraid of doing anything made me so "straight-edge" & "shy" & whatever else i've been called. now when my friends do ridiculous things or say something weird, i just shake my head & laugh awkwardly. i don't know how to be like them, like the kids these days. while i was busy being "mature" & "smart," i missed out on being "silly" & "dumb"
i don't even know where i was going w this post but i just wanted to share that realization. i guess it got me thinking about how i never let go or do anything crazy, even if it's just something small that's probably not even really considered crazy. maybe it's something i should start trying to change- not being afraid to look stupid
i've been wanting to get into photography for a while now but so many of my friends are photographers & it makes me feel insecure about the photos i take. i'm a slow learner so i still can't figure out all of the settings on my camera & i get embarrassed in front of a lens but i never know how to pose someone else when i'm behind a camera. i only ever experiment w photo-taking when i'm alone taking photos of myself
i don't feel comfortable enough to have other people be my model but i also don't feel comfortable enough to do some of the things that i want to do. if my vision has nudity, i don't want to ask anyone else to model for it but i also don't feel secure & comfortable enough to be in it myself. sometimes this means i don't get to take the kind of photos that i have in mind which sucks but it is what it is
while looking through my box of facepainting supplies, i found some fake blood & figured i could use it some day. then one day, i had a photo idea but i didn't get around to taking the photos for a while bc of work & bc, honestly, i kept forgetting to bring the fake blood into the bathroom w me. but finally i remembered. it's hard to take photos of yourself w a DSLR where you can't see what you look like in front of the camera (unless you set up a mirror behind it on live view mode) & no tripod. but i recently got an iphone xr & i heard the camera was supposed to be a lot better so i tried to play around w the different lighting modes
i don't usually have a "meaning" or a huge deep concept behind some of my stuff other than "i thought it would be cool." usually, through the process of creating the work, a meaning forms after. these photos started w "i wanted to take photos w fake blood" but while trying different poses & re-taking photos, trying to figure out how i want to edit them & what would look good for each photo, i veered toward a darker (not literally bc the photos are pretty bright) idea
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| this one is my favorite out of the 4 photos i took |
Saturday, December 15, 2018
Tuesday, December 11, 2018
Saturday, December 1, 2018
Wednesday, November 28, 2018
Sunday, November 18, 2018
Thursday, November 15, 2018
block review (ahhhh!)
what is block review, you may ask?
well lemme tell you all about it! basically, it's a portfolio review day where you find out if you officially get into the graphic design program or not. at the University of Houston, you've got to take Fundamentals of Graphic Design, Colors Materials + Methods, Introduction to Typography, & Intermediate Graphic Design before you can go up for Block. the assignments/projects that you do in those classes (& some other ones, should you choose to include them) are the ones that you put up for professors to see. sure, some of your professors have already seen your projects but all of the design professors are "judges" so some may not have seen your work before. also, you could have redone the work from previous semesters bc they weren't good enough to put up for Block
so when you take these classes & you feel ready (or it's just time), you sign up to go up for Block. then on a certain day, you come to campus w all these things that you need & your projects, & set it up in one of the designated classrooms. now, this sounds easy but it was a lot more stressful than i'm making it sound. anyone in design would agree
this was my wall:
this semester, there were some complications. there was a football game on the Thursday of Block Review so we couldn't really park near the art buildings. many students (including me) came Wednesday night in order to set up & then came back on Thursday (if we could manage to get parking/get dropped off/etc.) after 4 pm, to see if we got in
luckily for me, i have a great friend, Kevin, that drove me to campus, helped me set up (as much as he could), & kept my stress levels down as much as he could. i stayed downtown overnight & in the morning, he took me back to campus just to check on my stuff (i was worried people would mess w it or something would fall before Block Review). then we spent the day away from campus to keep my mind from freaking out. 11 am was when the professors came to judge & they were finished around 4 pm. we came back to campus to 1. find out if we got accepted 2. take down all of our stuff
i was so anxious about whether or not i got into Block that i didn't even open my envelope. i spent my time taking all of my projects down & people kept coming in & asking if i got in or not but i kept saying "i haven't opened it yet." finally, after taking all of my stuff down, i ran into a group of students that also went up for block. they asked me again if i got in & told me to just rip off the band-aid & check. so i had one of them do it for me. & i found out that i had been accepted
the graphic design program at the University of Houston generally accepts 24 students a year. that's ideally 12 a semester & this semester (Fall 2018), 10 students- including me- were accepted. i was in disbelief that out of 30+ students, i was one of the ten that got in. but i am so excited to have been accepted alongside these amazingly talented graphic designers
so starting Fall 2019, i will be in the Graphic Design Block program
Wednesday, October 31, 2018
Monday, October 29, 2018
Tuesday, October 16, 2018
Friday, October 5, 2018
Thursday, October 4, 2018
Monday, September 10, 2018
world suicide prevention day | we'll see you tomorrow
it's world suicide prevention day & i've blogged about it at least once before on my blog in previous years but there's never a day where this topic is not important
suicide is something that a lot of people find to be a hard topic to talk about but do you know what's even harder? wanting to commit suicide. the stigma around suicide & depression & mental illness creates a toxic & isolating environment which only makes things worse. talking about these feelings & being understanding or showing love back is how you change things. sometimes all you need is one person who understands that you feel the way that you feel & they show you love in return, in hopes that you will feel less of the bad feelings & more of the good
some days are easier than others, some days have more worth living for than others. some days you need to remind yourself of why you hold on, why you stick around
here are some of my reasons to stick around:
i hope that all of you have your own little list of things that get you through your bad days bc the world would suck if you were not in it. with that being said, "we'll see you tomorrow" (TWLOHA)
suicide is something that a lot of people find to be a hard topic to talk about but do you know what's even harder? wanting to commit suicide. the stigma around suicide & depression & mental illness creates a toxic & isolating environment which only makes things worse. talking about these feelings & being understanding or showing love back is how you change things. sometimes all you need is one person who understands that you feel the way that you feel & they show you love in return, in hopes that you will feel less of the bad feelings & more of the good
some days are easier than others, some days have more worth living for than others. some days you need to remind yourself of why you hold on, why you stick around
here are some of my reasons to stick around:
- my awesome little sister (who's one of my best friends)
- my loving mother (who always tries so hard for us)
- my strict father (who i know loves us a lot)
- my annoying brother (who i've been stuck w for all of his life)
- my best friends (who always make me feel special)
- my TN kids that i teach every week (who make me laugh)
- pretty colors in the sky
- sunflowers on the side of the road
- books that suck me out of my head & into their stories
- music that basically puts my feelings into words
- to spread love & positivity so that people don't have to feel the way i do
i hope that all of you have your own little list of things that get you through your bad days bc the world would suck if you were not in it. with that being said, "we'll see you tomorrow" (TWLOHA)
Sunday, September 9, 2018
Monday, September 3, 2018
Trey & Alyssa | HOW I PLANNED MY BOYFRIENDS BIRTHDAY (vlog/diy)
guys i will never not crey at how cute they are
Friday, August 31, 2018
body image
i was on youtube, watching random videos & ended up clicking on this one:
\"i don't have a thigh gap... that makes me not normal, that makes me not beautiful"
"i just wanna kinda fit in"
"i would literally slouch so i was shorter"
"people that don't look good in bikinis shouldn't go out in public in bikinis"
"i dressed as madonna & the kid in my grade... goes 'isn't madonna supposed to be skinny?'"
"i didn't necessarily struggle w an eating disorder but i definitely like went through periods of time where i would be like fasting"
"a term nowadays is slim thick, so even if some parts of you are slim, other parts of you have to be full"
"honestly i don't feel comfortable in my own skin sometimes"
"i just don't look in the mirror often & call it a day"
these girls are 6-18 years old; they're all younger than me but i can still remember feeling like this about my body during those ages & still feeling that way even now. we always hear about how girls feel like they have to "change to conform to society's beauty standards" but why does SOCIETY still not change THEIR beauty standards to conform to US? these crazy & outrageous standards are detrimental to girls' self-esteems/self-image but here we are, continuing to perpetuate it
why should we be self-conscious about our height, our weight, our facial structures- things that we can't control/were born w? why should we hate ourselves when we were created this way? if we were born to look a certain way, we should be able to love ourselves that way
why should we be self-conscious about our height, our weight, our facial structures- things that we can't control/were born w? why should we hate ourselves when we were created this way? if we were born to look a certain way, we should be able to love ourselves that way
sure, we have a bit more representation now than before- we have some models that are black, white, hispanic, plus sized, gay, etc. but it's not enough. we need MORE. MORE representation, more diversity, more NORMAL body sizes, MORE variety, MORE ways to show our beautiful girls that they are all normal, they are all beautiful, they are all valid
learn to love everything about your body
Monday, August 27, 2018
zero degrees
guess where the newest zero degrees opened up? right on barker cypress! finally, a location close enough for me to actually make the effort to go to
so alli, brenda, & i went to zero degrees bc 1. i needed to go somewhere to work on my project & 2. brenda's friend works here
i've been wanting to go here for a while now, just bc of the split cups (literally what it sounds like, a cup that is split in 2 sections, so that you can get 2 different flavors if you can't decide)! brenda & i shared one (bc i know i wasn't gonna finish a whole drink) & i got coffee horchata while she got the strawberry horchata
we also got the hot cheetos fries (which, according to brenda, is the most popular/most posted on social media) & some popcorn chicken (the portion was a lot more than i expected)
if you haven't already, you should check out zero degrees (tho i feel like everyone has been there already & i'm just late to the game)
Sunday, August 19, 2018
Tuesday, August 14, 2018
How to Turn Depression Into Millions | Lilly Singh on Impact Theory
if anyone were to ask me "who is someone that inspires you?" i'd have to HAVE to say Lilly Singh. if you don't know who she is, look her up. she is iisuperwomanii, a youtuber, a comedian, an influencer, a BAWSE. & if my hyping her up isn't enough, watch this video. i watched it & i feel so inspired to hustle hard, to be efficient, to follow my dreams, & to make things happen
Wednesday, August 1, 2018
Monday, July 16, 2018
Wednesday, July 11, 2018
why i will end up being in college for 6 years (transferring sucks)
ever since i got my associate's degree from community college & transferred to a university, i've felt kind of.. behind. in total, i'm going to spend 6 years in college just to get my bachelor's degree. my family (mostly my parents) & my friends don't understand why & every time i try to explain it, i think it just gets lost on them
basically, i did all of my basics & MORE at community college bc i got my associate's. to get it, you have to take everything that the community college requires, not just the basics that you will transfer over to university. i did this bc i figured since my parents want me to be at community college for 2 years anyways, i might as well finish off that degree. i took every class that i needed to transfer over to the school of art at the University of Houston & i expected to go straight into the design program after that
what they didn't tell me was that at the University of Houston, you have this thing called block. block is basically block design classes, like back to back of just that class. you have to get into junior & senior block by going through a block review which is a portfolio review of all of your design projects from the design classes you take before getting into block. the design professors look at everyone's projects & they decide the limited amount of students that get in. the classes you have to take before block are fundamentals of graphic design, introduction to typography, colors, materials + methods, & intermediate graphic design
when i transferred to UH, i realized i wasn't going to be there for 2 years (community college: 2 + university: 2 = 4 years for a bachelor's). when you're at the community college, they don't really tell you that you should transfer just basics or that you have to take these classes or that there's a thing called block. i already had been in college for 2 years but block is also 2 years & i wasn't in it yet. i had to take the 4 design classes first but i couldn't take color & type until i took fundamentals. so it set me back a few semesters but on top of that, block classes are only in the fall so i had to take all of these classes & get into block by fall which wasn't possible. so i had to split it up & i became a part- time student bc i wasn't going to spend extra money on classes i didn't need
so i stressed a lot about being so behind- 2 years!!!!- but i realized that i would be able to take my time w design & have time to do my projects really well so that i can ensure that i get into block (well, not exactly ensure bc you can never be sure). my parents don't understand that & keep telling me to try to finish college faster, when i literally cannot. it's not like i WANT to be in college longer, i am the type of girl who is always on top of things & on track & now i am off track & they're not helping by stressing me out
& block really really stresses me out. i try really hard to do everything so perfectly bc i know that graphic design is really nit-picky & the word "perfect" is all i can ever think of when i do my projects. it's so different than "art" bc in art, you can paint a little outside of whatever you're painting & it's fine but in design, that's bad craft. i think that people don't understand the difference btwn art & design & that's why they always think it's so easy for us. don't get me wrong, art can be hard too but i've always done art & design is me challenging myself
maybe if i went straight to the university when i graduated, i would be on track but my parents really wanted me to go to lonestar & i wanted to save money (which i did, don't get me wrong- 5 classes at lonestar cost me about $1000 something while 5 classes at UH cost me $5000 something). but it's kind of too late to dwell on it bc you can't go back in time but at least now i know so i can warn my friends that wanna do graphic design at UH!
this explanation got a little word-y but yeah, that's why i'm gonna take 6 years to graduate from college & why i need everyone to stop assuming it's easy & acting like i don't wanna finish faster!
basically, i did all of my basics & MORE at community college bc i got my associate's. to get it, you have to take everything that the community college requires, not just the basics that you will transfer over to university. i did this bc i figured since my parents want me to be at community college for 2 years anyways, i might as well finish off that degree. i took every class that i needed to transfer over to the school of art at the University of Houston & i expected to go straight into the design program after that
what they didn't tell me was that at the University of Houston, you have this thing called block. block is basically block design classes, like back to back of just that class. you have to get into junior & senior block by going through a block review which is a portfolio review of all of your design projects from the design classes you take before getting into block. the design professors look at everyone's projects & they decide the limited amount of students that get in. the classes you have to take before block are fundamentals of graphic design, introduction to typography, colors, materials + methods, & intermediate graphic design
when i transferred to UH, i realized i wasn't going to be there for 2 years (community college: 2 + university: 2 = 4 years for a bachelor's). when you're at the community college, they don't really tell you that you should transfer just basics or that you have to take these classes or that there's a thing called block. i already had been in college for 2 years but block is also 2 years & i wasn't in it yet. i had to take the 4 design classes first but i couldn't take color & type until i took fundamentals. so it set me back a few semesters but on top of that, block classes are only in the fall so i had to take all of these classes & get into block by fall which wasn't possible. so i had to split it up & i became a part- time student bc i wasn't going to spend extra money on classes i didn't need
so i stressed a lot about being so behind- 2 years!!!!- but i realized that i would be able to take my time w design & have time to do my projects really well so that i can ensure that i get into block (well, not exactly ensure bc you can never be sure). my parents don't understand that & keep telling me to try to finish college faster, when i literally cannot. it's not like i WANT to be in college longer, i am the type of girl who is always on top of things & on track & now i am off track & they're not helping by stressing me out
& block really really stresses me out. i try really hard to do everything so perfectly bc i know that graphic design is really nit-picky & the word "perfect" is all i can ever think of when i do my projects. it's so different than "art" bc in art, you can paint a little outside of whatever you're painting & it's fine but in design, that's bad craft. i think that people don't understand the difference btwn art & design & that's why they always think it's so easy for us. don't get me wrong, art can be hard too but i've always done art & design is me challenging myself
maybe if i went straight to the university when i graduated, i would be on track but my parents really wanted me to go to lonestar & i wanted to save money (which i did, don't get me wrong- 5 classes at lonestar cost me about $1000 something while 5 classes at UH cost me $5000 something). but it's kind of too late to dwell on it bc you can't go back in time but at least now i know so i can warn my friends that wanna do graphic design at UH!
this explanation got a little word-y but yeah, that's why i'm gonna take 6 years to graduate from college & why i need everyone to stop assuming it's easy & acting like i don't wanna finish faster!
30 song challenge
1. a song you like with a color in the title: red- taylor swift
2. a song you like with a number in the title: 1965- zella day
3. a song that reminds you of summertime: drunk on you- luke bryan
4. a song that reminds you of someone you'd rather forget: god gave me you- blake shelton
5. a song that needs to be played loud: misery business- paramore
6. a song that makes you want to dance: hips don't lie- shakira ft. wyclef jean
7. a song to drive to: featherstone- the paper kites
8. a song about drugs or alcohol: love me- lil wayne, drake, future
9. a song that makes you happy: electric love- borns
10. a song that makes you sad: welcome to my life- simple plan
11. a song you never get tired of: so contagious- acceptance
12. a song from your preteen years: picture to burn- taylor swift
13. a song you like from the 70s: i will survive- gloria gaynor
14. a song you'd love to be played at your wedding: thinking out loud- ed sheeran
15. a song you like that's a cover by another artist: skinny love- birdy (orig. by bon iver)
16. a song that's a classic favorite: i write sins not tragedies- panic! at the disco
17. a song you'd duet with someone on karaoke: gotta go my own way- vanessa hudgens, zac efron
18. a song from the year you were born: truly madly deeply- savage garden
19. a song that makes you think about life: topics- nevertheless
20. a song that has many meanings to you: skyscraper- demi lovato
21. a song you like with a person's name in the title: song for isabelle- pierce the veil
22. a song that moves you forward: brand new eyes- bea miller
23. a song you think everybody should listen to: 18002738255- logic, alessia cara, khalid
24. a song by a band you wish were still together: little things- one direction
25. a song you like by an artist no longer living: tell my mama- christina grimmie
26. a song that makes you want to fall in love: if i tremble- front porch step
27. a song that breaks your heart: scars- allison iraheta
28. a song by an artist whose voice you love: true- tillian
29. a song you remember from childhood: every time we touch- cascada
30. a song that reminds you of yourself: let me love the lonely- james arthur
2. a song you like with a number in the title: 1965- zella day
3. a song that reminds you of summertime: drunk on you- luke bryan
4. a song that reminds you of someone you'd rather forget: god gave me you- blake shelton
6. a song that makes you want to dance: hips don't lie- shakira ft. wyclef jean
7. a song to drive to: featherstone- the paper kites
8. a song about drugs or alcohol: love me- lil wayne, drake, future
9. a song that makes you happy: electric love- borns
10. a song that makes you sad: welcome to my life- simple plan
11. a song you never get tired of: so contagious- acceptance
12. a song from your preteen years: picture to burn- taylor swift
13. a song you like from the 70s: i will survive- gloria gaynor
14. a song you'd love to be played at your wedding: thinking out loud- ed sheeran
15. a song you like that's a cover by another artist: skinny love- birdy (orig. by bon iver)
16. a song that's a classic favorite: i write sins not tragedies- panic! at the disco
17. a song you'd duet with someone on karaoke: gotta go my own way- vanessa hudgens, zac efron
18. a song from the year you were born: truly madly deeply- savage garden
19. a song that makes you think about life: topics- nevertheless
20. a song that has many meanings to you: skyscraper- demi lovato
21. a song you like with a person's name in the title: song for isabelle- pierce the veil
22. a song that moves you forward: brand new eyes- bea miller
23. a song you think everybody should listen to: 18002738255- logic, alessia cara, khalid
24. a song by a band you wish were still together: little things- one direction
25. a song you like by an artist no longer living: tell my mama- christina grimmie
26. a song that makes you want to fall in love: if i tremble- front porch step
27. a song that breaks your heart: scars- allison iraheta
28. a song by an artist whose voice you love: true- tillian
29. a song you remember from childhood: every time we touch- cascada
30. a song that reminds you of yourself: let me love the lonely- james arthur
Thursday, July 5, 2018
surrealism | avant garde
surrealism:
-(unlike dada) highly organized group of artists rallied around andre breton
-adopted basic premises of psychoanalysis
-objective reality of the dream
-automatism, hallucinatory & irrational thought associations, recollected dream images offered means of liberating the psyche from enslavement to reason
-automatism: process of tapping unconscious by writing in trance-like state & registering involuntary, vivid images that tumbled out
-subconscious mind, repressed desire, imagery of dreams
-(unlike dada) highly organized group of artists rallied around andre breton
-adopted basic premises of psychoanalysis
-objective reality of the dream
-automatism, hallucinatory & irrational thought associations, recollected dream images offered means of liberating the psyche from enslavement to reason
-automatism: process of tapping unconscious by writing in trance-like state & registering involuntary, vivid images that tumbled out
-subconscious mind, repressed desire, imagery of dreams
-devoted to individualism & alienation --> no stylistic consistency
-two major directions: automatism & illusionistic dream imagery
first surrealist manifesto- andre breton:
-no fixed method for analyzing dreams
-chance: an obscure divinity
-believe in future resolution of dream & reality --> surreality
-the marvelous is beautiful
-surrealism: pure psychic automatism by which it is intended to express the true function of thought
thought dictated by absence of all control exerted by reason & moral preoccupations
belief in superior reality of certain forms of association, omnipotence of dream
-two major directions: automatism & illusionistic dream imagery
first surrealist manifesto- andre breton:
-no fixed method for analyzing dreams
-chance: an obscure divinity
-believe in future resolution of dream & reality --> surreality
-the marvelous is beautiful
-surrealism: pure psychic automatism by which it is intended to express the true function of thought
thought dictated by absence of all control exerted by reason & moral preoccupations
belief in superior reality of certain forms of association, omnipotence of dream
- reconstructing fragments of humanity & psyche
- investment in the erotic, eros, love
- "if you love Love, you'll love surrealism"
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| photograph of a "waking dream" seance- man ray artist as clairvoyant primitive space of individual/unconscious |
- many dada members moved over to surrealism after dada broke up
- andre breton- founder of surrealism
-works were mainly texton dreams- sigmund freud:
-introduced freud's ideas into surrealist circle
-travels to vienna to meet w freud
-theories were instrumental in forming modern concepts of human nature & motivation
-writings on dreams & unconscious changed traditional ideas about origins of visual imagery
-dream-thoughts are represented symbolically through similes & metaphors, includes recollections of impressive experiences
-psychial complex: portions represent foreground & background, conditions, digressions, illustrations, evidence, counter-arguments
-reproduce logical connection by approximation in time & space
anti-rational vision but different than dada
- dereve- marvelous chance encounters
- trying to find enchantment in disenchanted world in aftermath of WWI
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| luis bunuel & salvador dali, un chien andalou 1928 |
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| parisian surrealist group in 1929 around a painting by magritte eyes close= anti-seeing |
-shared set of ideas & tactics
-anti-retinal: rejecting privilege of visual, alternative forms of seeing (in unconscious)
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| ad in the surrealist revolution no. 1 (dec 1924) "we are at the eve of a revolution. you can take part it too" |
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| the surrealist centrale- man ray 1924 |
- pseudo-scientific aspect
^exquisite corpse drawings published in la revolution surrealiste 1927
collective drawing practice
invades rational
constructed in fragmented way
- automatic writing & drawing
- alternative logics
-would be revolutionary artistic practice
-transforming experience of the world
andre masson:
-abstract calligraphy: rhythm of swift lines or cursive brush marks generated images of violence & dramatic encounters of form
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| untitled (automatic drawing)- andre masson 1924 |
- rejecting rational = rejecting modernity?
- investment in meandering, collective, seeking connections
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| the lugubrious game- salvador dali 1929 "lugubrious" = looking sad & dismal illusionistic painting, dreamscapes, fluid, continuous line |
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| the figure- andre masson 1927 liquid glue & sand |
-derived forms from childhood memory
-didn't embrace trompe-l'oeil techniques
-automatism
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| the kiss- joan miro 1924 line references organic life forms abstract? |
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| birth of the world- miro 1925 abstract |
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| the key of dreams- rene magritte 1935 seemingly didactic abstract meaning? dissociation of image & text |
-dada --> surrealism
-frottage technique: textures by rubbing objects & surfaces on sheets of paper
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| little machine constructed by minimax dadamax in person- ernst 1919-20 uses type to create mechanical portraits of himself |
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| self-constructed little machine- ernst 1919-20 uses type to create mechanical portraits of himself |
-dadaist --> surrealist
-photography was ideal medium to literalize dreams
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| minotaur- man ray 1934 double seeing objective instrument used to create abstract images |
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| untitled- man ray 1920 |
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| anatomies- man ray 1930 |
- women's bodies used a lot in surrealism
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| the primacy of matter over thought- man ray 1929 |
- critique of modernism as philosophical
- interested in bringing art back to every day, here & now
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| the world at the time of the surrealists 1929 |
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| new mexico published in La R.S. no 9-10 |
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| andre breton's home in 1960 interest in the fetish & created own fetishes through surrealist objects |
dark, nihilistic, violent dimension
rejection of values of western humanism
acephale- society & journal; interest in human sacrifice
vs.
andre breton
beauty, erotic drives, aesthetics
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| suspended ball- alberto giacometti 1930-31 kinetic sculpture might be mimicking sexual relationships new: you have to touch it in order for it to move |
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| disagreeable object- alberto giacometti 1931 strange fetishes, taboo desires |
- objective chance: experience of chance on finding a marvelous objects; chance & fate
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| iron mask (that giacometti finds) (photograph)- man ray mask that soldiers wear? |
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| slipper spoon (that breton finds) from breton's novel l'amour fou "cinderella ashtray" |
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| invisible object- giacometti 1934 |
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| object of symbolic function- salvador dali 1931 invented use value for objects imagined function |
- uncanny: the familiar returning to you in a strange guise
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| la poupee series- hans bellmer c. 1934 animate + inanimate assembling doll parts & photographing them in weird ways |
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| photograph printed in minoutaure 1937 locomotive w plants grown over motion & stasis |
Wednesday, July 4, 2018
happy independence day!
IT WAS THE FOURTH OF JULY,
YOU & I WERE,
YOU & I WERE FIRE, FIRE, FIREWORKS
can you guys guess what my favorite holiday is?
i know there's a lot of bad that could be said about America's independence day but i just really love dressing up in red, white, & blue & i absolutely love love love fireworks. they're so beautiful & make me so happy
i didn't plan on having a great fourth of july bc we didn't really have any plans but we ended up hanging out w friends & eating crawfish & independence day cupcakes
at the end of the day we walked around my neighborhood in search of the fireworks that we kept hearing. we found some so we sat on the curb & watched my favorite part of the holiday (i actually recorded them bc we knew they were going to do a big finale, in which they set off a bunch at once)
needless to say, my night was made. i got to wear a cute outfit, eat until i was going to explode, & see fireworks. we managed to make the best out of a potentially boring & rainy day. happy independence day everyone!
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| U.S. flag bandana white "texas strong" pocket tee w texas flag hand painted (by me) american flag shorts (mudd) "USA" ring (kroger cupcakes) |
Thursday, June 28, 2018
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Saturday, June 16, 2018
foodventures w allisam | steel city pops, tiny's milk & cookies, gong cha
another allisam foodventure? you know it.
i have a list of food places that i've never been to but i've seen other people go to/post about so allison & i looked through it to see where we should go. one of the places on my list was steel city pops
for some reason, i thought it was going to be some cool they-make-the-popsicles-in-front-of-you or they-add-toppings-on kinda thing, where it'd be interesting to see or watch but i literally just chose a flavor & they handed me a popsicle. don't get me wrong, the popsicle was good (i got coffee flavored) but would i drive all the way to steel city pops just to buy a $4+ popsicle again? probably not
after steel city pops, we had some time & went somewhere that allison's been wanting to go to: tiny's milk & cookies. she wanted to go just for the picture but i read that their cookies were "the best" & cookies are my favorite food so i had to check it out
the space was just exterior- like when you go to a food truck & you just order from the window & stand outside? (like that, but it wasn't a truck) there's the logo on the side which i guess is where everyone takes the pictures (it wasn't that impressive to me but it matched allison's outfit so)
grabbed a tiny's chocolate chip cookie & it wasn't THE BEST cookie i've ever had but it was pretty good
we still had some time to kill so we went to bellaire to grab some drinks. i had never tried gong cha before but alli wanted to go so we did. i don't love milk teas & that was what most of their drinks were so i just found something safe- passion fruit yogurt slush. honestly, i wasn't that impressed bc i'm really picky w my drinks & they didn't have many that i would wanna try but that's just me
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