r.i.p. cameron boyce

it's w a heavy heart (& tears in my eyes honestly) that i'm even typing this post but here we go. i know that everyone is hopping onto the "r.i.p. cameron boyce" train but honestly, when my sister came into my room this morning to tell me the news, i didn't believe it. i thought it was fake news & i checked some of his co-stars' social media to see if they posted anything about it. it was early in the morning so i thought maybe they hadn't heard yet. then i started crying just thinking about people like dove cameron, booboo stewart, sofia carson, & debbie ryan, his co-stars, having to hear the news

i remember watching an episode of Jessie one day & seeing this adorable little freckle-faced boy. i thought he was the cutest kid, so energetic & funny. he was my favorite character on the show, the handful of times that i watched it (though admittedly, i didn't watch it THAT much) 

what i was more interested in was Descendants. cameron boyce played carlos, cruella de vil's son. i honestly loved the movie & the main cast so much. i'll admit, i'm a 20 something year old that watched both Descendants movies & was looking forward to the 3rd. ofc i'm still looking forward to it but w this tragic event, i honestly don't know how to feel

i haven't commented much on social media about his death bc it hurts my heart & every time i see posts or hear about it, i start tearing up. i know i never met him but honestly, he reminded me a bit of my younger brother, born in the same year (cameron just half a year older). i fell in love w his characters & his energy (& those adorable freckles). now i'm sad that i won't get to see more of that. i won't get to see more movies or shows w his acting, i won't get to see him reach his full potential (he's done great so far but i know he was going to go even further)

i gotta just wrap up this post bc there are no other words i could say to describe the loss that the world suffered today. i'm grieving along w his friends & family, knowing that he may be gone but his light could never ever be fully put out. rip angel